I've been having mother sick quite often recently. Maybe it's the month of May that causes that, I don't know. I've been standing on my own feet since the age of 17. I don't know how I overcome all the bad days, but the truth is I overcame it, and did quite well too.

I was studying for exam with Niki & another classmate at the uni few days ago. What my classmate said shocked me real well, he said when he saw me the first few times, I gave him the feeling of really tough character, with a sense of loneliness, even though I was always laughing around. I was shocked, I thought I covered it well =/.

Sometimes I feel like calling up someone to talk, but just that second I'm about to hit the CALL button, I cancelled it. What am I supposed to tell or say? I'm not seeking for sympathy, I just wanted to have something to take my mind off from it, but it doesn't seems that everybody understand this.

So I chose to call the 1st name on my dialled numbers, my bf. I always thought he's one of the closest to me. I seldom open up to someone, especially about things like this, sometimes not even Niki. But I got nothing at all. Nothing. I tried to shoo away the loneliness, but the more I try the stronger it gets. So I ended up crying, for no fucking reason. I hated myself to the max for that very moment.

I just needed a shoulder to lean on, or ears to borrow. How hard is that? Isn't that what family suppose to be?

Two Lovers Died In Crash

A friend of mine told me about this couple's death in an accident yesterday. [click on the title to view the news article ].The girl's named Ashley either, probably this is why I'm blogging about it. I don't know them personally but apparently alot of my friends knew them. I was on FB, and saw someone posted the pictures of this 2 lovebird.
After looking at the pictures & comments, I really felt for the couple's families & friends. Everything happened as if it's been plotted: brother's birthday - celebration - on the way back home - car crash - couple died & brother injured
It just seems like those cliche drama series we always watch on TV, and we never thought this would happen to us. When it hits, it hits real hard.
Life is really short, and fragile. It is really unworthy to have their life taken so that the lesson will be learnt by others.

Baby, this is for you.
You are very lucky to have survived from the car accident 1 year ago. You yourself know the best that your car condition was not any better compared to the crash above. You yourself know the best how much pain and suffer need to be beared, not only you yourself but people that cares for you as well. I remembered u even prayed because the pain was unbearable. Praise the Lord =)
Do what you promised to each and every one of us ok?

singalongsong

Yeah, it's the song title. A song by Khalil Fong. An English song. I've been listening to it the whole day, it made me felt alot better. I am feeling sick, tired, and blank. I just want to make peace, not war. But too bad, it always ended up the way it shouldn't be. Probably im better off as a deaf & dumb, so that I can filter out all the cruel and hurting words. How i wish i could just dump everything behind and go to an island, just me alone sipping on PinaColada.

Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and how I wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me

Yeah, how i wish =/.

I know I'm supposed to be studying for tomorrow's exam, but I just can't seem to absorb anything. Just not in the right mood to study.

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go."
-Herman Hesse-

Ashio!

Anyone can be Mario XD

Make me be your favourite character now!

Credit to Honio .

You made my day again. HAHAHA

Honio's brother, Logio.

STYLO 2009 - Designer Grand Prix

This year STYLO was held at the Taman Tasik Perdana Lake Garden. Overall feel and standard, i'm sorry to say but this year STYLO jatuh standard, probably they wanna go eco-friendly too =D

Niki, Dom & I went for the local designers' night on the 2nd April. Pictures were taken using my hp, so bear with the blurness.

just love my outfit for the evening

can u imagine us active in this social circle already?

Dom looked really good that evening

1st designer : Alvin Tay


2nd designer: Jonathan Cheng

3rd designer: Karl Ng

4th designer: Beatrice Looi

This is my favourite piece, love her hair too

It was a pleasant show, and the show gave me inspirations for my wedding dress =D.
Am really proud for the Malaysian designers.