God is good!

I am currently still in Aussie, but I can't wait to share the glory of God to those who you that reads my blog. The trip updates can wait, but not this.

First of all, I want to thank God for giving me more than what I asked for. I wanted and needed a car so badly as I've finished my studies and it's time for me to start working. I did manage to got hold of a good 2nd hand Myvi, but there's some bank loan problems in it.

God has not only helped me to settle the loan issue, but also settled my car installments! Amen!

Secondly, I want to thank God for guiding and leading Sam along the way in his new career over in Singapore. He has been worrying how to make more money to survive as it is not possible for him to get another part-time job as he only has the working permit to his current job. No way there's short cut for him without any connection! But God did it again! Someone head hunted him and offer him a part time job for extra income without needing him to get a permit.

I just wanted to tell you all...God is good! Amen! Ask and you shall be given!

3 more days...then it should be our 3 years anniversary.

Why do you have to do this to me? You mend my heart, and you broke it again. again. and again.

The bible says that in Proverbs 21:17 He who loves pleasure will be a poor man; He who loves wine and oil will not be rich.

It also says that Don't let wine tempt u, even though it is rich red, though it sparkles in the cup, and it goes down smoothly. The next morning u will feel as if u had been bitten by a POISONOUS snake. (Proverbs 23 : 31-32)

We put so much effort, we planned so many for the future, we anticipated all the shortcomings when the minute you decided to go to S'pore for a new job. We were prepared for all these, and ready for it... because we know at the end, it is for the better of our future. We know that it is a happy ending.

Sadly, this did not last long. You only went there for 2 weeks and things happened. Are you the only one not mature enough to handle all this alone, or am I the only one that can ready for all this?

I am sorry, but I really do not want a drunkard to be the man that I give my whole life to, the man that will love me and take care of me when I'm sick or poor, the man to my children, the man I love.

All I can say is, I just can't accept you this way.

My 22nd B'day

今年的二十二歲生日,參雜了很多複雜的情緒. 生日前夕和他吵大架鬧分手, 所有的計畫我都取消了,有時候還偷偷以淚洗臉.

Niki & Dom 為了逗我開心,帶我去了我一直很想去的地方 - Tamarind Spring. 那是一個環境優美的地方,很隱密,周圍都是樹林,還可以聽到青蛙和蟬叫聲. 我記得當晚是下著雨的,那滴滴答答的雨水打在atap屋頂上,令我暫時把不開心的事都拋到腦後去了.

我們三人就在那兒渡過 了我的二十二歲生日. 今年的生日,很默默無聞,也帶點遺憾.

Had my lil birthday cake @ GoDiva in the afternoon

Can't rmb what is this, but it is delicious

Asparagus was good

This salad was nice too, but I'm not a fan of Thai salad

Super value for price lobster soup!!

How can we forget to thank God for everything first before eating =)

Pressie time!

It's a PONY!! I'm planning to do a photoshoot for her =)

Oh yes, champagne for the birthday girl

Thank you darling!

2 years 11 months

15th November 2010 marked the 2 years 11 months of ups & downs; tears & laughters we have been through. You might be cursing...WTF lah, 2 years 11 month also want to celebrate, so doh doh lan yeh. Reason being baby is leaving to Singapore in 2 weeks time, and I will be in Aussie having holiday during our 3 years anniversary.

So we headed down to Marciano's for some nice juicy steak for dinner. I'm glad it was a weekday, there were only few tables occupied, so we had some really great privacy. As we learn to handle each other, I thank God for everything HE took away & provided in this relationship. Looking back 3 years ago, we both grew a lot, and changed a lot (for the better).

Working hard on the bread

Baby finally can smile with his complete set of teeth =p

This steak with apache hot berry sauce is awesome!

Baby's chicken cheese steak. Nice but I think is too jelak, unless you are a crazy cheese lover.

Happy 2 years 11 months

除了畢業典禮和四方帽,我正式結束大學生涯了. 有點害怕要踏入社會,因為要背負的責任多了. 目前,我真的很需要一輛汽車!!!!沒車做event超麻煩的!!!!

最近,我又和他和好如初了...雖說他答應了戒酒,可我不敢再擺百分之百信心了...怪只怪我不夠灑脫,心里真的很想他做到...天阿~~很討厭優柔寡斷的我!!!

這兩個星期都在工作,替自己賺零用錢. 很感謝主聽到我的禱告..阿門! 希望工作會陸續給我接到~~我要學以致用,坐好職位,自己有車有房子. 等有一天我可以很自豪地向天下宣告..."這一切都是靠自己的努力和主的恩典才得到的",一定不可以辜負媽咪的期望 =)

多兩個星期他就去新加坡長期工作了,不知我們會怎樣呢?

十月十日，我说过将你过去的饮酒历史忘得一干二净. 我说过我选择让圣灵做工,不再逼你,一切让主定夺这段感情. 今天，主定夺了，离合真的不由得我. 我天天向主祷告叫他赐我方向，原来是这一个方向. 而且原来当我put God first，我的泪流得出奇的少，心也没有预想中痛...

我本来真的有很多话想要骂你，可是当你爱一个人爱得变成心淡时，疲惫时，我发觉我连要说活的力气都没有了。。。。

我惟有祈祷别让酒成为害了你一生的好朋友。

Drama-Rama

Yesterday Baby G was officially 3 months old. Poor her have to stay in the vet for 1 night observation, and it was also like a night of hell for me.

It was like this:

I brought her up to my room to sleep for the first time as I think it is time to let her out from the cage. I got woken up at 6am by some paper rustling sounds and I saw her biting my books and shit on it!!! So I hit her with the book and made her bite it, so that she wouldn't dare to simply bite stuffs again. I began to clear up the mess, and she started coughing, or sort of like choking. I freaked out, and I dare not sleep and just sat there observing her. She began to salivate, literally like all dangling around her mouth. Then she vomited, both food and blood. I felt like crying already.

Thank God Niki send me to the vet, but the vet said have to send for X-ray as she suspects Baby G swallowed something. However, the result came out fine. So for safety precautions, Baby G had to stay in at the vet for 1 night.

I felt so guilty for the whole night, and I looked up on the internet how to pray A Prayer of Repentance lor! I was so worry that I'd become a puppy murderer! The point I'm trying to make here is, guilt has already eating me up even though it's just a puppy. I really cannot understand how such a real murderer like we always see in newspapers, can live a normal life and sleep soundly in the night for yearssssss before they got caught?!

All I can say now is, Thank God that Baby G is fine, and I learnt how to pray the Prayer of Repentance =)

Niki said my dog is drama-rama, hahaahaha.

"sometimes"

Sometimes, I wish I am deaf and dumb. Then, I will not hear nor say anything hurtful. Sometimes, I wish I have an excellent communication skill. Then, I will know exactly what is the right word to say. Sometimes, I wish I am still a mummy's little girl. Then, I will not need to go through all this shit.

Yeah, I have so much more "sometimes" wishes...How I wish right? Too bad, reality is cruel. I am crying inside my heart. I've had the habit of swallowing back my tears, but sometimes it's just too difficult, it came pouring down.

I've became too dependent, now I wish for the day to come, as I need to begin to find back myself. Love oh love, you are such an invisible killer. I will overflow myself with God's love and my ambitions, so that I will not be such vulnerable victim any more.

You can kiss my ass now!

A hint of rainbow above the sky of Subang Parade, brings me back all the memories where I used to live for 17 years. Those years will be an important chapter in my life.

At that very same night, I dreamt of my previous house in Subang. I guess I really missed those days.

Mummy, I love you.

近排成日響度想明年之計到底要點 (工作, 住宿, 金錢).

有時想刻意不去想, 偏偏就響你腦海中盤旋唔肯走! 好讨厌!

大個女啦, 好多野我都需要自己揸主意. 我唔似其他人咁好彩,有爹地媽咪撐腰.

我有既, 只是話親但是一點都唔親既親戚; 一大堆有亦真亦假既朋友; 同埋一個自己都仲響度揾緊方向感既男友.

大家唔好誤會我既意思, 我只不過係想用個貼切點既方式來表達我有陣時感覺到既無助感, 並無貶低其他人既意思. 我知身邊有好多好關心我既人, 心領啦!

有錢唔是大晒, 但是無錢真是好多野都 kik 住, 阻止佐你既perfect plan.

我好需要方向感ㄚ~~~~~~

LMF THE WILD LAZY TOUR 2010 @ KL

Hello Hello! LMF 的演唱會根本不必多講, 睇相最實際! 而家就來回味下當日的大懶堂時刻啦!

附ticket贈送的tee,埂係要剪點design啦! Thanks Ree

曖昧 與 我

阿肥

Tommy 仔

阿華

阿傑

仁兄呢個動作好天真可愛!

型爆!

MC 與 Kelvin

Kelvin 與 我

你感覺到現場氣氛嗎?

撲街仔!!

屌9你!!

圓滿結束

肥弟弟 與 我

7ate9 醫肚嘆紅酒 =)

王晋媚birthday

Must be wondering why I have to write her name in Chinese huh? It just feels more intimate lah =) Happy 2X birthday Nicole OngChinMei.

I've known her since Form1 (13 yrs old), it's been 9 years! OMG I feel so old!!!! She's been there for me through thick and thin since the age of 13, thanks babe. I hope I can be your bridesmaid in 2 years time!! *wink* I give you all my best wishes, live your 2X to the fullest!

1 of my favorite earring

MC trying to show off his new tattoo

The Birthday girl

Forcing her to give a speech

Making her to blow the candle from the place she stands, hahaha

Happy time @ TGIF

Kw's Birthday

Yes, time flies lah. Last year we celebrated her birthday @ TGIf, this year @ 7ate9. Happy birthday KW! I hope you will be happy with what you have =)

The Birthday Girl

7ate9

Lurvin' my Pearly X Polkadots look

Darling Jamesi & I

Don't touch my bun!

MC trying to teach us how to pour red wine the right way. The bottle cannot touch the glass, FAILED! XD

Birthday girl & I

Stone kia

Always love this kinda group pic!