Exactly 5 min ago i was really happy b'coz my cute boss Faybian acknowledged us, which makes me- myself feel more confident. And it's a fun working day today. Unfortunately, good things always don't last long.

I felt ur stress over the phone, i tried to cheer you up although i know it's useless. I don't mind if i failed, it's normal for one to be frustrated easily when ur being bothered by problems. I wanted to just say bye and leave u alone, but i didn't b'coz i know that you need someone to talk to. I'm just doing my best to say whatever that comes into my mind, creating conversation i would say. I tried so hard to tolerate and ignore whatever unhappy feelings that surged out when you're saying something harsh, but yet i just feel that people always tend to take things for granted.

Example:
I felt bad too when i was blamed for nothing, but i didn't throw tantrum at anyone, including you. Why people always say : " No i don't want to show this kind of expression in front of my friends and so&so, " BUT when it comes to the close ones, people just tend to explode and say or do whatever they want. Why? B'coz they are your parents, he/she is your gf/bf, they should just accept all this. Am i right? Somebody correct me if i'm wrong. You are mature enough to consider for people not so close, but not for the closer ones? Correct me if i'm wrong again. Such contradicting facts huh?

What's bf/gf for? To accept whatever harsh things you say or do when you're feeling bad? Or share problems? Don't feel like sharing, that's fine. Nobody will force you. Don't even feel like talking, that's fine too. Tell him/her that you wanna be alone and then talk later. Is it that hard? If yes, then i really doubt your relationship skill.

Too busy to blog la. As for now, pics of Sg. Gabai waterfall session first =)

me & my Sony-Alpha a100 =)

Niki & her baby girl -_-

Really love this picture so much

The 3 girls in the same "shoe"

You get free spa & massage here =)

She is trying to make a Pepsi ad.

Rawwr~ =D

Half candid

Stupid woman slipped

Angels =)

I'm scrubbing my dead skins

Good girl gone wild

Back to the 70's - sei duo kam fah

That's all for now, St. Patrick's & STYLO pic will be up very soon.

Stylo KL Fashion Festival

From tomorrow onwards, the city will see a landmark fashion event. Stylo KL Fashion Festival will take KL by storm from March 15th - 23rd, in conjunction with the F1 race weekend from March 21st - 23rd.

The festival is one of the eight events of Kuala Lumpur Grand Prix Week 08, organised by the Kuala Lumpur Tourism Action Council to celebrate 10 years of F1.

Along Jln. Bukit Bintang,outside Pavilion, you will see a bright red cube with STYLO wordings on it, that's what we called the fashion cube. This fashion cube can accommodate 400 guests, with tier seatings, like the one at Milan or Paris or NewYork. You don't have to crane your neck anymore to get a good sight of 30 sec. And also a 20m run-way in the middle.

There will be two special designated areas—Red Cube and Red Room filled with fashion related exhibitions and daily fashion showcases by famous local designers such as Melinda Looi, Rizalman Ibrahim , Dato’ Tom Abang Saufi and many more.

Italian label Versace will grace the pre-opening night, which is tonight, with it's Spring/Summber 2008 Collection. Niki's team are actually handling this Stylo project. Lucky girl, she will be there for the whole Stylo Week, including tonight's Versace fashion show!! Damn it!!

But~~i got official invitation though hehe =)but not for tonight's Versace. I love HotShoe for this *wink* for being one of the best event company in Malaysia.

The fashion show kicks off (tomorrow night) with a collaboration between L’Oréal Professional, Shu Uemura & designer Melinda Looi. I won't be attending this, b'coz im attending the St. Patrick's Guinness event at Sunrise Plaza. Abit hard to choose which 1 to go actually..but St. Patrick's is a one-day event only >"<>"<.

Note : Malaysian label British India will have top Indian models, yoga practitioners & orphanages strutting the runway in its designs. They will be bringing in colourful collections =)

Note : Most anticipated Mercedes-Benz Stylo Awards Night presented together with The Star on March 21, where local designers will be feted with various awards, such as Designer of the Year, Stylo Artistry, Stylo Innovative and Stylo Classic. Awards too will be given to the Best Makeup Artist, Best Fashion Stylist and Best Hairstylist. Other equally important categories include The Hall of Fame, Most Glamorous and Lifetime Achievement Awards. Last but not least, followed by a masquerade after-party ‘Who Am I?’

Above 2 are a must go, but too bad i will be missing out the Mercedes-Benz one, b'coz i will be at JB Danga Bay setting up for the stupid Astro Ceria event. Yes yes, laugh at me -_-.

Schedule :

15th - Loreal - The Art Of Beauty with Melinda Looi (must-go)
16th - The Edge & Mastercard, Featuring Corum - Les Nuits Shang Hai
with Michael Ong (must-go & i'm attending)
17th - Malaysiana Journey, Tom Abang Saufi, Rizalman, Jendela Batik
& Edric Ong, Chereographed by Dick Lee with DBKL TAC
18th - British India - The Story So far (must-go & i'm attending)
19th - Corum & Lewre Couture presents Khoon Hooi
21st - Mercedes-Benz STYLO Fashion Awards. (must-go)

There are after parties every night, god damn it.

Alright, the big show starts tomorrow. Im very excited !! Say hi to me if u bump into me =)

The 8 major events for F1 10th celebration.
http://www.visionkl.com/Events.asp

Continue reading if you are prepared for a boring entry.

Sometimes im scared by myself, i changed alot. I dunno it's a good thing or wat. I miss my old life.
The life when everything is simple.
The life when i'm just me, don't need to please anybody or to change for anybody.
The life when i just to stay at home alone online talking to my crush, even though he didn't know. The life when every morning i go to school just to gossip with my friend and sleep in the class.
The life when i get to do my favorite routine - dancing.
The life when i don't need to worry what i eat b'coz i have enough exercise.
The life when mum is around and ready everything for me.

I miss my life at Subang. Walking over to SS15 AsiaCafe and hanging out with KahYan, and making mum wait for me. Now come to think of it, i'm fucking regret. Humans are all the same, they only learn how to appreciate when the person is gone.

As we grow, we gotta learn how to sacrifice and make a decision that benefits the most. Which including changing urself to fit in the majority. I felt so fake sometimes. The fake smile on my face, nobody knows except me. You think you know me well? No i don't think so. You think i'm happy all the time? No.
How i wish i'm living in the ancient, where human nature are all exposed under the sun. Going topless exposing your tits are a form of beauty, it's woman's proud. Woman crying is their rights. Now crying makes no use anymore, woman gotta just swallow and tell the world "yes, im fine, no big deal "no matter what happens. Tell me which woman doesn't want a shoulder to lean on?

Sometimes when i see the person i know so well acting fake in front of another stranger, i really feel like asking them, why the hell are you being so fake? For 5 min i didn't know who u are. I'm really sick of this whole fakerism phenomenon. It has become a necessity to human being, you gotta learn how to be fake to survive or to win. Being real just makes u a loser.

I have live a slightly difficult life compared to the other same age teenagers. I act dumb most of the times. Not that im damn smart, it's just not to reveal so much of myself to the unknowns. You think i don't understand how important is to appreciate someone? I swear i know better than you. You think im so dumb that what ever you tell me i will take it serious? No i don't. I don't really expect much. 3 years of living alone has taught me not to put my expectations on someone so high.

Pathetic to say it, but i think the one u can believe is only just yourself. I'm sorry to say this, but i have seen too many cases happening right in front of my eyes. I hate promises. Don't promise if you know you can't fulfill it. Don't fucking say you will not hurt me if you know there is any chances you might hurt me, be it with words or actions. Don't say you are very tolerable when actually you're not at all. What is wrong with telling the truth? You only live once.
I'm not pin-pointing to anyone, don't get me wrong.

Fuck i just knock my knee on the same spot again. It's bleeding. FUCK! It's been so long since i dropped a single tear b'coz of frustration. I miss mummy. I miss her scoldings. I miss her bringing food to me when i've got tutorial in school. I miss walking to school with her. I miss just hanging out with girlfriends talking about boys.

I need to breathe. Alone. Just me alone.
Excuse me please. Too much of saying " yeah im fine." Hell no, i'm not fine at all.

Ketchup session

It feels so nice just hanging out at Bangsar area and chit-chatting away, although it had only been 3 weeks since we really meet up and talk. I felt like ages ago.

Was at MangoMania just now, catching up with Reema & Niki. Dom as usual the invisible one when 3 of us are in our own world =) We talked about what happened with our internship. Well basically it's just 2 of them telling coz i got nth interesting to tell, we all had a good laugh though. Nevertheless, i still love my bitches.

By the way, Josh the Mosh came over to our working area yesterday just to have lunch with me & Niki. It's really sweet when somebody come over to pay u a visit when you're working. Love my Big Teddy! It's always nice getting Teddy hug from you =)

Anyway! I get to go to Stylo Fashion Week! Not to intern of coz, i wish i could. Puvan the music guy said he will give me a crew tag so that i have free access to everywhere. Muahahaha...by the way, it's a HugoBoss tag to be precise. Ok fuck it, who cares about HugoBoss, it's the tag that matters =)

You know John Legend? The one who played the piano with Fergie singing live at the grammy award? Yes, he might be coming for the 1st day of Stylo's after party. Oh~ can't wait for it~ Finally i feel i'm actually in an event company now.

8 hours later, i will be going for waterfall picnic. Picnic this word has not exist since i went to school. It's a kiddo & family thing. And now, we decided to back-to-basic. Then afternoon is ketchup-session with Unithree members at Delicious, Bangsar. Will post alot alot alot of pics soon! =)

My blog are alive! Hate those emo entries! God grant us journey mercy tomorrow & let us learn how to appreciate the mother nature with the forest angels & water angels =) Sounds like a fairytale huh?

Cheers ;) I'm off to bed.

I have so much so much stuffs to blog about but yet i have no time and the energy. Imagine for the past 2 weeks, everyday sitting in the office making calls, sending emails & letters, drawing layout, you wouldn't feel like going back home and online again. All i feel like doing was rest & chill. Anything except facing the comp. except it is necessary.

My internship, i'm not enjoying at all, seriously. Yes, it might sounds selamba, but this is not i want. My whole body is growing meat!! I'm stucked in this airconditioned room, snacking when i have nth to do & basically sitting from 10-7. I feel like a fat old lady.

I have not been to any events till now. My 3rd week is coming to the end god damn it. And i'm not looking forward for the JB outing at all. FYI, we will be going over to JB on the 19th to start set up and the actual event date is 23rd at Danga Bay. It's Astro Ceria Run for Fun marathon. Supposed to be a very good news huh? But on the actual day me & Megan are just gonna sit at the info counter. WTF.

I kept reminding myself its okay...keep up the positive attitude. Surely you will gain something from this event. Oh yes i know about it, but just knowing the fact that i will be sitting at the info counter for the whole day, it just fucking dampens my spirit.

I wanna go for Stylo fashion week, I wanna go for Versace launch, I wanna go for big companies' gala night....yeah i guess u know where is my direction heading to. I'm more interested in luxury & lifestyle. Not those family thing. IT IS JUST SO NOT ME!

I need something to spice up my day. Or some one. Atleast. Sigh....Problems and arguments plz shoo away. These is exactly what I do not want to happen right now.