"sometimes"

Sometimes, I wish I am deaf and dumb. Then, I will not hear nor say anything hurtful. Sometimes, I wish I have an excellent communication skill. Then, I will know exactly what is the right word to say. Sometimes, I wish I am still a mummy's little girl. Then, I will not need to go through all this shit.

Yeah, I have so much more "sometimes" wishes...How I wish right? Too bad, reality is cruel. I am crying inside my heart. I've had the habit of swallowing back my tears, but sometimes it's just too difficult, it came pouring down.

I've became too dependent, now I wish for the day to come, as I need to begin to find back myself. Love oh love, you are such an invisible killer. I will overflow myself with God's love and my ambitions, so that I will not be such vulnerable victim any more.

You can kiss my ass now!